housing n new job..

talked abt housing issue with dear again todae..

hmm.. so sad. cant settle down with a house.. some disagreement.. but well..din dwell on tt further..

prices are sky high.. think the little dream of having our lovely home sweet home has drifted abit further.. may have to rent a flat first.. have to work double hard..

money is not everything.. but not enough money ..everything is juz out of your reach....

work hard bah... really hope to have our own house soon.. and affordable one..

also talked abt changing job AGAIN..

sigh.. current working hours is definitely not suitable for family life next time.. and dear is always hinting n complaining not enough time for him..every sunday i have to work..occassionally both weekends are burnt.. but i actually kind of like current job n working hrs.. start at 11am.. can sleep till late n enough..haa.. n no stress..no many duties.. simple job! even can day dream.. and yet earning gd money... n kind of get used to the job.. except for the nasty n non-sense customers..

got a new job offer.. gd hrs.. but next time haf to wake up really early..8.30am start work.. (really puts me off...) drastic change.. =_=.. n many other additional operational/admin work.. new jobscope. new environment.. have to start all over again..will i like it?? kind of tiring.. but maybe long term is gd for family life.. dear will be happy definitely..

looking at myself...is this me..? suddenly become so "family orientated"..maybe tt's the sacrifice tt ppl haf to make when going into marriage.. always haf to put family first..
juz feel that.. if i m not going to get married.. maybe i 've alreadi taken up the previous job offer to help setting up a new pharmacy..gd income n gd challenge n gd exposure... but well.. i believe is either to focus on career or family ..n family is more impt to me... stability n ordinary will be more practical..

maybe i m juz in fear of changing....maybe i m juz getting lazy with current job... oh no.. signs of getting old n "stubborn"..

pretty lost.. shall i change job? wat i want.. ????

well.. current job offers me no future..10 yrs down the world.. will still be stucked there as a retail pharmacy n working those kind of shitty hrs..kind of sickening... coz if i were to climb the coperate laddar.. will need extremely high level of commitment.. haa. maybe i m juz giving excuses to myself..
i m juz too idealistic... :P

maybe teaching is another gd option..haha.. stable n slowly can promote to ..maybe head of dept..haha :P..but well..no hard work..no gain..

wat i want..?