some words to rem by heart

Dear also said.. next time quarrel..

use and said the words for constructive and positive outcomes..
dont bring negative and destruction...

to solve a prob.. not to create another prob....

a bad fight finally... on housing issue

had a bad fight last night.. and i said things tt hurt n upset dear much..

ya.. dont know how to control my anger n emotions..(but i was really upset abt the housing issue ..:<) i dont want to end up like M_ _ _ _ _ ....

dear talked to me tonite..told me wat was wrong and told me how i could handle it better.. in a more mature way...

he said my words are sharp like knives.. and we must be careful with the words we use, coz they can be like knives and cut our dear in pieces..
and when we grow older, we need to control our anger/emotions and cool ourselves down..
well .. really hard.. but will try to learn that..

also reach an agreement that next time if one of the parties is going to explode..we will juz walk away nicely..leave him/her alone to cool down.. and when we are still in bad mood..and dunno how to send a friendly sms.. then we better dun write or say anything....

*words can be like sharp knives and cut our dear apart, if you love him/her, think before you use and said those words, think before harm is done..*

i also really hope that the housing issue can be solved ASAP.........when..? (?_?)

little hiccup..

sigh.. another little hiccup on housing issue...

i just want a lovely small flat.. and enjoy the sweet sweet 2 ppl world..

i dont care if it's not condo or landed..i will be even happier if we start with a 3-room. lovely n easy to maintain..

it's rather to stupid to move into a big big expensive private house which u cant really afford..and borrow great loan from the bank. and every mth u haf to live with tight budget and no savings.. coz most of the income goes back to the bank.. wat for?
been seeing ppl ard working like a dog .. n cant spend and cant even enjoy life.. coz they are in great debts..they cant afford to lose the job even it's shitty... they have to work work work and earn money n return to bank.. sad life rite?

"if you dun have a big head, dun try to wear a big head" as the cantonese saying goes..

conclusion.. work hard n save up more !!!!

gathering ~

yea went drinking at chijmes last nite.. not really drinking.. but i still get abit drunk.. so drowsy =_=

haa.. trying to show the sexy slit.....

resigned!

resigned todae!
feel relieved.. feel excited.. but yet.. feel abit insecured..

yea. no more nonsense stupid customers~!! and no more working on every sunday soon..yay yay

excited.. going to take up new course.. going out to see explore..wat's outside.. yea~
and think going to have a more balanced n healthy lifestyle! good!

feel insecured.. feeling may have a drop in gross income..inititally.. was qutie emotional n upset.. threw temper on dear..

came all the way to look for me n brightens me up.. yea..we are going to work hard and explore the opportunities tog bah!

always look on the bright side n be cheerful as he always reminds me!!

housing n new job..

talked abt housing issue with dear again todae..

hmm.. so sad. cant settle down with a house.. some disagreement.. but well..din dwell on tt further..

prices are sky high.. think the little dream of having our lovely home sweet home has drifted abit further.. may have to rent a flat first.. have to work double hard..

money is not everything.. but not enough money ..everything is juz out of your reach....

work hard bah... really hope to have our own house soon.. and affordable one..

also talked abt changing job AGAIN..

sigh.. current working hours is definitely not suitable for family life next time.. and dear is always hinting n complaining not enough time for him..every sunday i have to work..occassionally both weekends are burnt.. but i actually kind of like current job n working hrs.. start at 11am.. can sleep till late n enough..haa.. n no stress..no many duties.. simple job! even can day dream.. and yet earning gd money... n kind of get used to the job.. except for the nasty n non-sense customers..

got a new job offer.. gd hrs.. but next time haf to wake up really early..8.30am start work.. (really puts me off...) drastic change.. =_=.. n many other additional operational/admin work.. new jobscope. new environment.. have to start all over again..will i like it?? kind of tiring.. but maybe long term is gd for family life.. dear will be happy definitely..

looking at myself...is this me..? suddenly become so "family orientated"..maybe tt's the sacrifice tt ppl haf to make when going into marriage.. always haf to put family first..
juz feel that.. if i m not going to get married.. maybe i 've alreadi taken up the previous job offer to help setting up a new pharmacy..gd income n gd challenge n gd exposure... but well.. i believe is either to focus on career or family ..n family is more impt to me... stability n ordinary will be more practical..

maybe i m juz in fear of changing....maybe i m juz getting lazy with current job... oh no.. signs of getting old n "stubborn"..

pretty lost.. shall i change job? wat i want.. ????

well.. current job offers me no future..10 yrs down the world.. will still be stucked there as a retail pharmacy n working those kind of shitty hrs..kind of sickening... coz if i were to climb the coperate laddar.. will need extremely high level of commitment.. haa. maybe i m juz giving excuses to myself..
i m juz too idealistic... :P

maybe teaching is another gd option..haha.. stable n slowly can promote to ..maybe head of dept..haha :P..but well..no hard work..no gain..

wat i want..?

the reason for this blog

yea.. always wanted to have a blog.. but with no strong motivation..

and now . i got one finally ^_^~

this blog is going to record n remind myself how i prepare for our grand wedding in March 2009. the feelings that i have.. the things that i have been thru with my hubby-to-be~

ups n downs ..

so far.. hotel is settled.. gowns n photography are also settled..

feel blessed that dear is involved much in the choosing also.. I dont have to do it all by myself as i heard from other couples that usually gals are the only one doing the job :P

and now i finally understand.. why this process is tiring and can cause upset/argument..

again very blessed that we always manage to resolve the issue in a mature n caring manner..

communication is really important!! and the care n love n understanding for one another!!

but.. one down thing..balloting result is out..we din manage to get one.. but dear said never mind, we will work hard tog and see wat come along the way =)

yea~ with faith n hope always..